what i don’t miss

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I think it’s fair to say that Christianity changes people…..it’s changed me.

Things I used to think were the norm for me I no longer want to do.   It would partially have to do with growing up too, I mean I’m 32 in 2 months – SSSHHH – blargh…but it’s definitely because I’ve made specific lifestyle choices that are directly linked, I feel, to my faith.

This thought came about because of New Years Eve.  Finley, 3 or even 4 years ago (i’m getting so old the years go fast way to quick, it could be longer!!) would have made sure that she was where all her friends were, where there was lots of music, people and drinking – preferably in game form.

Skip ahead to this year and well the last few years and I just want to make sure that I get to sleep at a reasonable time so I can make the most of my first day of the year!!!  (i see a scenic river cruise near in my future!). 

It’s such an interesting thing.  I love finding this out about myself though – because I don’t miss it!  I have great memories and experienced amazing things with some people really dear to me but I really don’t miss it!

It’s that past lifestyle that comes with a lot of friends around me, that define being social as drinking.   I thought that too, I lived like that – it just went hand in hand with weekend life.  But now, despite it making me sleep terribly and have lovely stomach issues for the next few days, I don’t want to hang out with friends knowing that it’s all centred around drinking.

Sure I have no problem with drinking, by all means go for it, have a glass or two of wine, sure I’ll have one with you

Go, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart, for God has already approved what you do. Ecclesiastes 9:7

But the issue for me, and what I know has changed with me, is that I no longer want to be around that!  Harsh?  I don’t know. No offense meant. It’s just me.

I know I have said no to more things in the past few years than I ever have.  And its because there are still friends of ours who have parties, go out clubbing and focus things around drinking.  Again – I have no problem with that, I’d be a hypocrite to say I did.  It’s just not for me any more.  Come on over and I’ll cook you a big meal, we’ll have a beer, play a boardgame – happy Finley days!!   Just none of the drinking to get drunk for me any more!   I get tipsy off 1 wine these days let alone letting me have the whole bottle!!!!  Something 23 year old me would have been very ashamed of.

But it comes back to saying how my faith has changed me.  I know it has and gosh darn it I’m PROUD that it has!!

And do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but be filled with the Spirit, Ephesians 5:18 

I want my faith to reach places it hasn’t yet.  I want to sit and focus on reading the Bible as much as I can.  I want to understand and have clarity with it ALL!   It definitely makes me happy and it’s something I miss when I don’t have it!!!   And I want to keep learning more so that I will (very soon I pray!) be filled with the Holy Spirit and be more faith-filled than ever!!!    And if it means saying no to social occasions (not family ones mind you) to work on my eternal life – I guess thats the price I’ll have to pay…..and I think I’m pretty okay with that 🙂
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