study frenemy

 

I’ve been sitting at my desk, ready to study.  All the books and notes from my previous session are out and I’m looking like I am ready to go.   To an outsider, I’d be looking like a legit study nerd kicking some goals.

But alas.  They do not know whats happening.  What’s happening on the inside.

I have a lot of study to do.  I need to finish this assignment.  If i wasn’t studying I would be outside today.  Its a nice day.  My job, is okay but what about my dream job.  What would I do if I could do anything.  What is my cat doing?  Gee I really love eggs and I didn’t have any for breakfast.   I haven’t posted on my blog for a while I miss doing that.  

The enemy.  My study nemisis.  My brain.

How challenging you can be to yourself.   That it can be such a battle to  try and focus, especially when you know you have to.  The times when you need your brain to kick into gear and outperform itself…..instead it disappears down a thinking wormhole that just gets more tangled and lost the deeper in you go. 

So here I am – ticking off something on my imaginary list of things to do that aren’t studying, writing a blog post.  I feel strangley proud of myself that I’m accomplishing something, but I know thats just a detour from fear.  Because I’m going to snap out of this and panic write my essay thats only a quarter complete and due in 4 days.

So dear brain.  My friend and foe. My frenemy.  We need to get along.  We shouldn’t be sitting in the local park with that other guy procrasination slowly kicking the ball around without hitting any goals.  We should be smashing those balls out of the park and working closer with proactive guy and finishing what we started!

…or, we could just go watch the olympics.  I hear thats good, though I’m not really into sports 

✌️ Fin

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i just called, to say, i miss you.

Just a little pop in to say I MISS THIS SPACE!

Studying has taken over my life and as much as it saddens me that I can’t do all the things I used to love to do and also that incredible thing called freedom – I also feel this is the direction my life needs to take.

So my little page – i miss you.  I miss all the lovely people and interactions that came with you. I miss sneaking peaks into others lives through this space.   I miss the faith that poured from me as I wrote.  I miss the ideas that sparked as I took a photo.  I miss the creativity that flowed when I would design imagery or layouts.

I will be back though.  After this first semester I am only going to do 3 subjects (not 4) in Semester 2, so my time will be slightly less chaotic.  Slightly.

However, for now, I have 3 exams next week and a quiz – so life is pretty full on.  The calls of easy food and study combo definitely beckons me but I know my body just hates it, so been sticking to a nice healthy lifestyle.  And making breakfasts is pretty much the highlight of my days as its the only time I really get a chance to cook.  It’s funny how much I miss cooking and cleaning when I have to study haha!   But thank the Lord for a husband who is feeding and cooking for me!

So here is a quick snapshot of what goodies and healthy deliciousness has been on the breakfast plate lately, plus a look at my little desk/life.

See you soon little space xx

Fin

 

Sweet potato rosti, kale, avo & poached eggs.

Omelette with tamari rice & custard apple

Quinoa flake porridge.

Potato rosti, baby spinach, mushrooms, avo & poached eggs.

 

this be my life! high on science & communication, low on excitement.