not in my time


A few revelations after this weekend….what a weekend oh my heart!!!!  Let me just delve straight into it 😀

I need to trust in the Lord – FULL STOP!

I need to pass EVERYTHING over to Him.  I need to surrender my over thinking little brain to Him.
I need to give Him my over wrenching emotional heart.  I need to give all my worries to Him.

And as much as I know I need to be doing these things > > > I want to be doing these things.

We’ve just been home a few hours from what has been an absolutely spiritually awe inspiring two days.  My mother in law for the past few weeks as been talking about a man who just walks in the Holy Spirit and is so God filled you have to meet him.

So she arranged a dinner for last night, we headed over at around 3pm and not only did we get the chance to meet other lovely God filled people but we met this man, this man Steve.

Of course if you’ve been reading my posts you’d know that I am what some call a ‘baby believer’.  I am on a journey in finding my faith and I have found it in abundance!!!    I have been happily seeking the Lord and been immersing myself in all things Him!!! Reading and listening and as much as I haven’t been reading as much as I’d like to have these past few weeks, I have been listening a lot to my thoughts, or actually my heart.  Been trying not to over think and just do and most of all pray!!

I knew it going to this meeting at my mother in laws that it was going to be something I’ve never seen before on my Christian walk so far.  I know how overwhelmed I get with new things.

So before I left the house I went to my room, got on my knees and prayed.  For good conversation, for it to flow, for my nervousness to not stop me from saying what I felt, for me to not be afraid to speak out my thoughts and to most of all hear from the Lord.

Listening to Steve, his wife and step son who came to my mother in laws home as well as a few other of her friends and my brother in law, it is something I’ve never witnessed before.

I have never been a part of a group prayer session.  Can I just say WOW!!!  I’ve never been a witness to others testimonies!!!  And I’ve never met anyone who is just so sincerely passionate about God and so happy to walk into strangers homes, all around Australia to speak and preach the word of God with them.  Not in a Church but to come into peoples homes and speak and hear peoples testimonies and to just sit, in a circle and praise and worship God.

Unbelievable eye opener.  My mouth had no words to be honest.  I was actually feeling complete happiness these past two days.  Completely open to learn and hear from someone I’d never met and now someone I will never forget!

As I said, I had some really amazing revelations from not only hearing him preach to us but by hearing about other peoples journeys and their testimony of how Jesus Christ came into their lives.

1.   I want to wake up everyday and trust completely and wholly in the Lord.   I want to give all my worries,  all my fears, all my heartache over to Him.

2.  I have to trust in the Lords plans.  And this came from testimony from my brother in law who waited 12 years for their little one year girl.  I need to trust in His timing.  To surrender all my longings for a child to Him and have such unyielding faith in the Lords plans for us to have children, that it will come by the hands of God – no one elses!!  Something that will stick with me forever is this;

“We have to bring ALL glory to God for the child that we will one day have.  We should not be giving glory to a Doctor or IVF for our child but ONLY because of the grace and faith in our Lord Jesus Christ that we be given such a miracle!!!”

Just unbelievable for someone to hear…well for me to hear…when its been so okay to me to do IVF if it means I get a child out of it.   That I will do anything I have to TO get a child….when the answer is of course right there.  Stay faithful and our God will deliver ALL the longings of your heart!!!

Enter revelation stage door left haha!!!

It is a tall order.  I know it will not be easy! But I have to understand that it is not under my control.  We live in a world where we want something now and we get it…put it on credit card, interest free, go into debt – its yours!!!

But its not about any of that.  It’s about trusting in God’s timing.  Trusting in His plans for our lives.  No matter what that timing is.  I need to remain faith filled and honest and open about my relationship with Jesus Christ and honor His timing and leave it in His hands….and in my faith!!

Pretty amazing weekend.  Just so so special about the people I am meeting through my walk with Christ.  Unbelievable things I am learning about myself and those around me.

Now I just need to let this giant pill digest.   And I feel exhausted (the good kind!) after just hearing all this and listening to others testimony and hearing Steve preach…..can’t imagine how he is feeling haha!!!

This weekend has brought another aspect into my journey of faith.  Awesome!  I could go on and on and there are quite a few other things that grew in me too that I will definitely have to share soon – there are  A LOT of thoughts going on in my  nerdy little head right now I can tell you!!!!

Hope you all had an awesome weekend!!!  What’d you get up to?

…and as a quick side note:  just recently bought God’s Plan for Pregnancy thanks to the lovely suggestion of Caroline at In Due Time….only having read a few pages so far I can definitely see that this book will help us even more!!! So thank you!



04/11/2013 4:10am
 Wow – I wish I could hug you right now. I love this – I love what the Lord is doing in you and with you. And isn’t corporate prayer just amazing? So glad you got to experience this weekend. Believing and standing in faith for God’s perfect timing. And, love that you got the book, it will ROCK your world. We have authority in Christ – Hallelujah 🙂
04/11/2013 2:57pm
 “Baby believer” or not girl, you are so wise!! I love reading about your journey and your desires for trusting God! You are amazing!
06/11/2013 4:33am
 Oh Finley this post just touched my heart!! There is just something about praying with others that thrusts us into the presence of God! I am praying for you and your heart my dear friend! Standing in agreement that God will do more than you could even imagine. I know that he is working in us all are working on our nothing hearts. He will satisfy these desires! Your brother in laws testimony is indeed a powerful one! Just a reminder of Gods faithfulness!!