miracle – IN IT FOR LOVE

that ‘little’ announcement

What a ride it’s been (and what a long time since I blogged its been!).

6 years of trying for a baby, (3 x failed IUI’s) where we were told we would struggle to conceive naturally and that IVF was the only way (with male infertility & “ageing eggs”)
1 1/2 years of being on the adoption journey and loving every step closer it got us to meeting our child

Then, in one positive pregnancy test, it all changes. Our planning, our longing, our desires for children were coming, no matter how, they were coming. We’ve always felt that no matter what, God would make us parents in some capacity.

And now….here we are, 14 weeks pregnant!!!

I don’t think I would have ever been able to close the door on adoption, its been too close to my heart with my dad and close family being adopted. But I didn’t have to close that door, God did. He had other plans. Plans that are promised clear as day in His word.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

Our hopes of conception that were always constant, even though we were told otherwise. Our hope that He knew, every step of the way. He gave us comfort and a crazy peace and knowing that everything would work out how it was supposed to in the end.

That finding out, some 10 weeks ago now, was a day where my faith was just lifted to a different level. Where feeling blessed didn’t compare with knowing we were blessed by the hands of God. Where believing reaches knew heights because He is perfect in all His ways!

“The Rock! His work is perfect, For all His ways are just; A God of faithfulness and without injustice, Righteous and upright is He. Deuteronomy 7:14 NIV

That we are now on a new journey which I am still comprehending but completely amazed by and can’t freakin wait for!!! A journey with a baby due in April 2018 that is already off the charts in length, all thanks to a 6foot 7inch tall husband. Bring on anything I say!

the promise of a miracle

As my husband and I continue waiting on our miracle, on a child, there are so many things I keep learning along the way.

You see it is hard waiting for a miracle. Every day I feel different things – certain times of the months I feel A LOT more things I can tell you.

I’ve had plenty of sad days and days of being upset and wondering when this journey will end. But amongst those days there have been happy days. Plenty of them! And its focusing on that and why you were so happy that is what keeps you going.

What I’ve recently learned however, and I’m talking recently as in Sunday just gone, is that I deserve a miracle!

It seems that for quite a while, I’ve been telling myself quite the opposite – that I don’t deserve a miracle. That there is something I’ve done along the way that has meant that I won’t get a child. That I shouldn’t ask to be pregnant in prayer because it’s not something I’ve earnt. So I haven’t been asking. I haven’t been praying for our future child.

Now that in itself is something I have to work on because I’m still trying to figure out why exactly I feel this way, but Sunday it changed this perception for me. I took myself out of my comfort zone and went along to a healing meeting my sister in law invited us to. It was at a church outside of Brisbane with a Pastor called John Mellor – an Australian man who travels the world performing amazing healings and miracles in the name of Jesus.

Every single person in that church was given the opportunity to be prayed for. To line up after the service and have John pray on their need, to pray for healing. I felt like I maybe shouldn’t. That there were people in this church with pain, sickness and cancer and here we were, healthy and happy people who wanted to create a life, while others were fighting for theres.

But we lined up and waited for John to pray for us – both whispering to each other about ‘what do we ask for, what do we say‘, only to both say back to each other ‘i don’t know i’ve never done this before‘. Yes we are dorks.

But fancy that. Not knowing what to ask for – but knowing at the same time. We shouldn’t have to be afraid to ask!

We did end up telling him when it was our time – that we were waiting for a baby.

He prayed for us and prayed our infertility away. He laid hands on us and prayed for healing of sperm. He lay hands upon my stomach and prayed for my uterus to be healed. He laid hands on us both and prayed for the promise of a child in 12 months time. And tears streamed down my face.

I’ve learnt that its okay to speak out loud what we want. That as we praise God and ask for forgiveness, that we can also ask for what our hearts long for and believe that through faith He will deliver! Because we are all worthy! That Jesus paid the ultimate price for us and that in these circumstances we have to take it to the cross!

Sunday gave me affirmation of hope and for believing in a child of our own just as He has done for so many others who have prayed for the same!

I will be praying every day. I will be praying every day on the promise of a child of our own in 12 months time. Praying on the healing power of our Lord Jesus Christ and believing that we do indeed deserve a miracle and we will have a child.

6 Comments

Katie link

15/10/2014 12:49am

this is beautiful. you deserve happiness. you are not alone in your journey. blessings.

Caroline link

15/10/2014 4:56am

Amen! So thankful that there is power in the name of Jesus! That He has given us the authority to call forth life into our wombs! SO awesome that y’all received prayer! I love that Jesus love to do miracles and can’t wait for yours!!

Morgan Brooks link

15/10/2014 7:40am

AMEN!!!! This is amazing!!! I’m in complete agreement with the prayers prayed over you and all that Caroline just said!!! YES!!!!

Elisha Kearns link

16/10/2014 7:33am

Ahh I just love this! Praying and believing with you! Just like Hannah received word from the priest that her prayers have been heard and answered, believe that your prayers have also been heard and answered 🙂

This post reminded me of a post I recently did called, My First Smile
http://waitingforbabybird.com/2014/08/07/my-first-smile/

ames 4:2 which says, “You do not have because you do not ask.”

ASK AWAY GIRLIE 🙂 XO

Chantel link

16/10/2014 8:23am

Oh, I totally understand this Finley! I’ve grown up in a church where we don’t like to believe we deserve anything, I love that you had such a great experience on Sunday. I’ll be praying along with you!

Angela link

24/10/2014 12:07pm

What a beautiful story! Praying for you, friend.

waiting on your miracle

10/10/2014

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At the end of last month, September, we had a guest Pastor to Church, Sam Chand speak. Sometimes at Church there are just some sermons that really hit you, that smack you right in the chest and say ‘listen well to this one Finley you need to hear this!’.

This was one of them and paired with scripture (Sam Chand referenced Mark 5:36-43), it’s something to definitely study on as I seek answers as to our infertility and “what’s next”!

He spoke about Things to do while waiting on your Miracle and the story of Jairus, who was waiting for his miracle. About how Jairus must have felt waiting for Jesus to come to heal his daughter. But instead, he had to wait. He waited alongside Jesus as he healed a woman who had been bleeding for 12 years and was continually outcast from synagogues because she was “unclean”. But she touches Jesus garment and by her faith she is healed. Obviously Jairus is happy for her but the delay while he is waiting for his own miracle must have been frustrating to him. Though Jesus did not neglect a woman who needed him.

Jairus’s daughter passes while he is waiting and he must have been quite upset at the situation and at Jesus I am sure. But when they finally get to his house, Jesus tells Jairus and his family, no she is just sleeping and brings her back to life. Now THAT is a miracle! Even with the highs and lows.

Yet Jairus did wait.
Though not patiently I’m sure at times – but, he waited by Jesus side.
His faith must have been waivering, he would have been amazed at the healing power of Jesus in that moment of healing this woman – but he waited.
He experienced extreme sadness when finding out his daughter had passed, but he followed Jesus back to his home – and he waited – to see his daughter raised from the dead and healed!

But its all in the waiting!!!

Now patience isn’t my virtue and its something I have so struggled in with infertility and throughout my life. But its not by patience alone, it’s by faith. It’s that even in the face of fear and struggles, you have to take it to the cross. You have to believe in your miracle. Believe in the power that is Jesus as you wait! And his sermon summed it up;

Things to do while waiting on your miracle
1. Don’t be afraid.
2. Only believe
3. Surround yourself with positive people (see Mark 5:37)
4. Kick out the negative people from your life (Mark 5:38)
6. Speak life into your situation (Mark 5:41)
7. Feed your miracle

All these, except for number 4 which I feel can’t be helped sometimes (especially if you work with some of them!) are exactly what needs to happen.

But above all, have faith – have faith in the waiting – and believe that Jesus will put his hands on your situation and breathe life into it! That nothing is impossible with God!

Amongst hilarious jokes and puns on waiting – you have to watch the podcast if you like a good laugh and a good sermon where it hits all the right spots! (33 minutes)

6 Comments

Angela link

11/10/2014 5:37am

Great reminder girl!

Finley link

14/10/2014 9:05pm

Thanks Angela.

Victoria link

12/10/2014 12:50am

Thanks for linking up with Susannah and I! 🙂

I love it when someone comes by with a truth that is super necessary, however difficult it may be to apply.Waiting is a thing we tend to do so poorly and in ways that communicate what a lack of faith that we have. I speak for myself….My waiting needs to be redeemed just as much as the rest of me!

Finley link

14/10/2014 9:07pm

Thanks so much Victoria. It definitely gets difficult at times and its a daily thing to just try and keep looking forward and to the cross for me!!! One day at time 🙂

Jessah link

13/10/2014 10:52am

What a wonderful post, Finley! Your faith is so inspirational. I hope that you’re not waiting long.

Finley link

14/10/2014 9:08pm

Aww thanks lovely Jessah! Me too! Waiting on the promises of the Lord definitely for He does deliver! You are proof of His followed through promises! Hope you are well mamma to be xx

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