study frenemy

 

I’ve been sitting at my desk, ready to study.  All the books and notes from my previous session are out and I’m looking like I am ready to go.   To an outsider, I’d be looking like a legit study nerd kicking some goals.

But alas.  They do not know whats happening.  What’s happening on the inside.

I have a lot of study to do.  I need to finish this assignment.  If i wasn’t studying I would be outside today.  Its a nice day.  My job, is okay but what about my dream job.  What would I do if I could do anything.  What is my cat doing?  Gee I really love eggs and I didn’t have any for breakfast.   I haven’t posted on my blog for a while I miss doing that.  

The enemy.  My study nemisis.  My brain.

How challenging you can be to yourself.   That it can be such a battle to  try and focus, especially when you know you have to.  The times when you need your brain to kick into gear and outperform itself…..instead it disappears down a thinking wormhole that just gets more tangled and lost the deeper in you go. 

So here I am – ticking off something on my imaginary list of things to do that aren’t studying, writing a blog post.  I feel strangley proud of myself that I’m accomplishing something, but I know thats just a detour from fear.  Because I’m going to snap out of this and panic write my essay thats only a quarter complete and due in 4 days.

So dear brain.  My friend and foe. My frenemy.  We need to get along.  We shouldn’t be sitting in the local park with that other guy procrasination slowly kicking the ball around without hitting any goals.  We should be smashing those balls out of the park and working closer with proactive guy and finishing what we started!

…or, we could just go watch the olympics.  I hear thats good, though I’m not really into sports 

✌️ Fin

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hey you, 2016!

2016 you are one fast moving year!
It’s already day 18 and your days are passing WAY too fast!

One thing I want you to do for me this year is go slow!   Make months long, days full and moments plenty!

Because I’m going to be filling you with a lot this year – so don’t run away on me.   My brain will be at capacity with studying full time, my eyes will be tired with working full time and 2016, your weekends are going to be full to the brim and overflowing!

You know why!?

Because I can do it all!  I can handle it.  Whatever you throw at me this year – I will smash it aside and triumphantly jump into the sky shouting “is that all you’ve got – come at me bro!!”

I want to study, work, have babies, adopt babies, volunteer, spend long nights with friends, and crazy filled days with family.  Go to the beach, long walks, adventures, romantic dinners, holidays away, and more and more!

I know your predecessors think I say this every year – but this year – I’ve got this!  I know others say, “slow down – you’ve taken too much on” or “make sure you make time to rest”.

To that I say – why?  There is no time like the present and things can change in a heartbeat. We’ve got one life and only one 2016!  I can do anything I set my mind to.

If I get tired, if I stumble, if I fall – meh – whatever! I’ll dust myself off, get back up and keep going (and maybe have a big long sleep on a weekend every now and then)!  There is  no right or wrong time to change, to make changes.   I say its ALWAYS the time to change!

So 2016 – let’s do this! Let’s say corny quotes like “be the change you want to see in the world” and listen to Shia LeBouf and “Just do it!” and enjoy every single little bit of EVERYTHING that happens this year!

kthnx

 

operation change begin!

 

Why hello there new year!  I’ve had a quiet blogging end to 2015 and a slow start to 2016, but one thing that is clear – 2016 is going to be INCREDIBLE!

Two things have me describing my feelings for 2016.  Courage and change!

I will need courage to face the change which is about to happen this year!

 

INITIATE CHANGE OF CAREER!

• That wonderful feeling of finally knowing what you want to do with your life…15 years later!
• The years of being an Executive Assistant are coming to an end…well in 4 years time.
• This year starts a Bachelor of Education to become a Primary School teacher!
• Working full time and studying full time – courage required!!!

 

I’ve felt the need for change in my life for a few years now, but have let fear take over and rule my decisions….decisions that I know are safe and not challenging.

This year that stops!  I can handle anything through He who strengthens me!

Come at me 2016!!!